Had a rough day in the gym today..but before I talk about that, I'm going to list all the good things that happened to make myself feel better

1. free coffee at the early morning meeting
2. random dance party to "get low" at work
3. a voice to text malfunction resulting in "rectum wrestling"...jokes that resulted from "rectum wrestling"
4. getting asked to help move a desk at work because I am "the strongest person in the office"
5. Brian singing the Super Mario song while running, and then clicking his heels
6. 2 minute PR on my grace time (4:09..not good, but a solid improvement)
7. Joey and Ben OD-ing on gatorade. True story. 
8. getting told that I looked lean today (yiii)
9. the amazing support system that I have from my friends at the gym, who didn't bat an eyelash while I was having a meltdown and made me feel 100x better

So back to the roughness. Did Grace today (30 clean and jerks @ 95#). I finished in 4:09 and almost puked. Then had a pretty epic gym meltdown. I really feel like I'm overtraining. The all knowing wikipedia defines overtraining as

 a physical, behavioral, and emotional condition that occurs when the volume and intensity of an individual's exercise exceeds their recovery capacity. They cease making progress, and can even begin to lose strength and fitness. 

hmmm sounds about right. now let's look at some common symptoms:

• Persistent muscle soreness check
• Persistent fatigue check
• Elevated resting heart rate who knows, probably
• Reduced heart rate variability obviously haven't checked
• Increased susceptibility to infections yep, if this stomach thing is an infection...
• Increased incidence of injuries not yet, but probably getting there
• Irritability yes
• Depression not really
• Mental breakdown oh god yes
• Depressed immune system yep
• Constipation or diarrhea think this covers my creepy stomach issue
• Absence of menstruation ish
• Frequent minor infections/colds currently stuffy, so yes
• Insomnia nope 
• Loss of appetite pretty sure I never could lose my appetite
• Irritability yes
• Loss of motivation double yes
• Loss of enthusiasm and competitive drive YES

soooo according to wikipedia, and my medical knowledge, I am the poster child for overtraining. I'm super stressed about this competition and want to be as prepared as possible, but logically I just need to go easy, take a break, and make sure that I'm physically AND mentally healthy for the famously hot showdown.

Tomorrow I'm going to go in and work on HSPU and maybe some thrusters and be done with crossfit for the day. I already wasn't planning on doing the programmed workout...and I just saw it and REALLY don't want to do it. Could change my mind, but probably not. THEN tomorrow afternoon I'm going to go climbing with Brian...and THEN I'm getting a massage. The gym is closed Weds and Thurs, so will probably use those as rest days too. maybe I'll squeeze some yoga in. we'll see how I feel.

Today's meals were kind of weird. Instead of snacking throughout the day, I ate kind of big meals. Probably has something to do with the fact that my stomach kills after I eat anything, and I want to keep that pain to a minimum while still fueling my body.

Meal 1
Bsn - Syntha-6 Isolate - Vanilla Ice Cream, 1 scoop (38g)	150	7g	2g	25g	20mg	190mg	1g	2g
Trader Joe's - Steamed & Peeled Baby Beets, 2 baby beets (85g)	40	8g	0g	1g	0mg	30mg	7g	2g
Bananas - Raw, 0.5 small (6" to 6-7/8" long)	45	12g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	6g	1g
Trader Joe's - Blueberries- Wild, Organic-Frozen, 70 g	35	9g	0g	1g	0mg	0mg	6g	2g
Trader Joe's - Coconut Milk Beverage - Unsweetened, 4 oz	25	1g	3g	1g	0mg	75mg	1g	0g
Meal 2
Trader Joe's - Raw Large Hazelnuts, 1/4 cup (30 g)	190	5g	18g	5g	0mg	0mg	1g	3g
Meal 3
Wild Squirrel - Vanilla Espresso Almond Butter, 2 tbsp	190	6g	16g	7g	0mg	30mg	2g	4g
Apple, bacon, and rosemary pork meatballs, 4 serving	360	4g	29g	23g	96mg	223mg	3g	1g
Apples - Raw, with skin, 1 medium (2-3/4" dia) (approx 3 per lb)	72	19g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	14g	3g
Meal 4
Banana Coconut Muffins, 1 serving(s)	229	16g	17g	5g	107mg	39mg	4g	4g
Oscar Mayer - Reduced Sodium Bacon, 2 slice	70	0g	6g	4g	10mg	160mg	0g	0g
Eggs - White only, raw, 0.5 cup	63	1g	0g	13g	0mg	202mg	1g	0g
Earthbound Farm Organic - Power Greens (Spinach, Kale, Chard), 3 oz	20	3g	0g	2g	0mg	130mg	0g	2g
Meal 5
Earth Fare Organic - Sunflower Butter, 1 tbsp	85	4g	7g	3g	0mg	45mg	2g	2g
TOTAL:	1,574	95g	98g	91g	233mg	1,126mg	48g	26g